About Mixed 57

I'm a gay man. Over two and a half years ago I separated from my marriage (to a woman) after 20+ years. We have a one son who is at college. I began coming out over four years ago and am now fully out to family, friend and work. I'm 59 and trying to make sense of my new life. It's an interesting wonderful powerful time. I love my new life and exploring life as an out gay man. My blog is my journey from first coming out to my wife to the last wonderful two+ years. And what an incredible journey it has been.

What Do The Birds Think About the Pandemic?

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I sat at dinner looking through the sliding glass door at a small woodpecker seeming to hop up and down the side of a large tree in our back yard. A curious thought occurred to me: What do the birds think about the pandemic? And the simple answer I had was that they are blissfully ignorant as they go looking for whatever small bugs woodpeckers eat. They move through the world without an inkling of what the human population of the planet is currently experiencing. Continue reading

The Wedding and the Pandemic

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Trying our best to get married

I have been dating my partner, now my finance, for over five years. Five years and three months to be exact. We met shortly after I made the decision to come out, had separated from my wife and moved into my own apartment. We met at a Meetup group that held monthly dinners in local restaurants for gay and bi men. A mutual friend introduced us. But, it would be eight months before we would go on our first date. Continue reading

Isolation In The Time of Pandemic

We have been home now for over a week, leaving for only food and long walks around our neighborhood. Luckily, I am here with my partner, soon to be my husband. We compliment each other well and usually do not get on each other’s nerves. But I am anxious to get back to my more active life. I have been asking myself, what do I want to focus on with all this time on my hands? I’ve decided to resurrect this blog, which I used to write in more frequently, and to read more. I’ve also decided to watch less news.

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Pandemic

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With HIV a manageable disease today, I felt that coming out later in life had its pluses. I hid from the terror of AIDS and HIV for years. In fact, it was AIDS arriving on the scene that was one important factor that had me go back deeply into the closet after a few years straddling the fence. While COVID-19 is a different kind of disease than HIV and AIDS, today we all live in fear of the stranger.  Continue reading

Different

Now, “different” is nice, but it sure isn’t pretty
“Pretty” is what it’s about
I never met anyone who was “different”
Who couldn’t figure that out

– At The Ballet from A Chorus Line

I knew I was different from a very young age, even though my mother, grandmother, and aunt tried to turn it into being special. As the character Bebe sings in A Chorus Line, I figured out that I was not like the other boys and it was not a good thing. I did not engage in baseball on the playground, I was completely disinterested in sports and could not get my head around the rules or players’ role in different games. Continue reading