The Fear Door

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As I’ve moved through the journey of coming out these past years, every time that I’ve taken a step forward, in spite of my fear, it has ultimately been positive. The fear door, once stepped through, has unknowns on the other side.  For me, the wonder of what is on the other side of the fear door is part of the excitement.
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Coming Out to the Division Leadership

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Today I stood in front of about 175 people in a leadership meeting for the division I lead at my company and came out. While I didn’t read from the document below, I did write down what I wanted to say in advance and used it to think through my message. I wanted to be clear and strong in what I said. Continue reading

The Best Period of My Life

Life at it’s best! From June 15, 2013, the day I moved into my apartment and out of my marriage, to today, has been the best period of my adult life. Not that there have not been periods, events, moments before last June that were wonderful. But these last fourteen months, taken as a whole, have been incredible. From that first night in my apartment until today, I have had a fantastic time and transformed my life to a fully out gay man with a rich and diverse group of friends. Continue reading

Why do they need to know?

As a teenager, when I thought about my life to come, I thought about how I would make my mark on the world. I would ask myself what I could be or do in the world where I could leave a mark? Would I be famous? I would imagine all sorts of possibilities. But it was more than being famous, it was doing something great in the world that people would respect and know me for. I think these are the questions most teenagers ask themselves. Continue reading

The Life I Came Out For

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There’s a woman who worked in my organization at my last job, that I recruited to the company I joined three years ago. I’ll call her Jane. We’ve known each other for the past five years. Jane never worked directly for me, but always worked for someone who reported to me. Yesterday we came out to each other. Since this is work, we didn’t come out to each other directly, but another woman at the company emailed me that Jane, and two other people, a man and another woman, were interested in getting involved with the new LGBT resource group, of which I’m the executive sponsor. I was very excited to see Jane’s name in the email along with the other two employees. Jane is someone who is a strong leader and I was hoping to find a way to get her involved in the LGBT resource group. But because we weren’t out to each other, there was no way for us to have a conversation on the topic.

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Taking The Gay On The Road

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As a closeted man, I kept my passions, interests, and emotions in check to keep the gay from showing. I hid from the world so deeply that I became bland, boring, quiet, and very much in pain. Continue reading

Come Out, Go Big

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Balancing a high-level job with a lot of pressures and the process of continually becoming more public as a gay man certainly makes for a level of anxiety, fear, and an exciting, evolving life. Continue reading