Passing Water

In my early 40’s, I began to experience difficulty urinating. I learned from a urologist that I had BPH, Benign prostatic hyperplasia. BPH is a benign growth of the prostate, that, over time, as it continues to grow, makes it harder and harder for a man to pee. A man’s prostate, like his ears and nose, continues to grow as he ages. Ok, who designed this system? BPH effects most men at some point in their lives. 

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The Little Death

Litany Against Fear


There is real death, and then there is what I think of as, the little death. When I use this term I do not mean what people describe as, la petite more, a term that is tied to the feelings at the point of orgasm. I always think of, the little death, as it was described in the book Dune, by Frank Herbert.  He writes in the Litany Against Fear: “I have no fear, for fear is the little death that kills me over and over. Without fear, I die but once.” 
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New Rules

I remember when my grandmother was in her early 90’s still worrying how she looked. It was surprising to me at the time to see this women well past her prime still worrying about how she appeared to the world. As I began to come out in my mid 50’s, I remembered my grandmothers perspective, and noticed how much I was conscious about how I appeared to the world. But I did not feel well past my prime. I felt like a new world was emerging. Continue reading