No Longer Home

 

Since before my wife’s death this past April, I began to live in the house that I had moved out of four years earlier, when I began my life as an out gay man. I had never planned to live in our house again.  But that all changed as my wife’s health declined from terminal cancer. 

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My New Life

Until my wife was diagnosed with cancer two months ago, I thought I was in the final stages of ending my married life and beginning a neww life with my partner. I went from planning my divorce to planning my wife’s cancer treatment.  My wife’s battle with an aggressive cancer brought me back into her life, after three years and four months of separation. Her tumor was found the week before we were set to begin divorce mediation. 

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Thanksgiving Day

 

Sunset at Provincetown, MA – November 23, 2016 

Somehow the tradition of thanksgiving, with the abundance of food, plates heaped full of food, a myriad of deserts, and that stuffed slick feeling later, has always seemed to me a very strange tradition.  It is not that I do not like all the wonderful foods.  Some of my favorite food traditions are at thanksgiving.  It is just the abundance and “consuming mass quantities of food” that always seemed over the top to me.
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Deeply Romantic

I spoke last night to a close friend of mine and something he said took me by surprise. Like me, he came out later in life — me in my mid 50’s and him in his early 60’s. He is about sixty three now, handsome in a rugged way and in great shape.  After a lot of soul searching, he chose to stay in his marriage, but agreed with his wife to open up the marriage so that he could date men.  He has been dating a young man for the last year.
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Human or Animal?

 

 

One of my favorite sci-fi books of all time is Dune by Frank Herbert.  In one of the early riveting scenes, Paul Atreides, son of Duke Leto, is given the test of the gom jabbar by the Reverend Mother Gaius Helen Mohiam.  Without going into the details of what the test is – you will have to read the book — the purpose of the test is to know if Paul is human.  If Paul is not human then he is an animal.   

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Mediation Stress

I thought divorce mediation was supposed to be less stressful than lawyering up.  My wife’s lawyer gave her three names of mediators for us to talk to. I have found the whole process of even having a conversation with these mediators and their assistants ridiculously cumbersome and complicated. All three have office staff that should be fired.  Their staff are incapable of providing basic information.  They mis-schedule meetings.  They promise follow up calls that do not occur.  The entire process has been frustrating and very stressful.

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Finding My Joy – Part I

I felt a level of anxiety, emotional lock down and coolness when I first arrived at my parents summer home.  Two adjacent houses in a lovely New England town.  I am in one house with my partner and a good friend of mine and his boyfriend.  My parents and sister are in the other house.  

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